finally, im blogging again.maybe the last time.who knows?

well, i would like to share this very true story of mine,

which i think i would not want to forget :)

and trust me, i remember the very detail of it.

and if ya gonna read it all,its be freaking long story.


this story begins at august, 1st.
i helped my friend to went on stage to perform some performance,
i hold the character of an owl.
every1 laughed.me, too :)

after school, it was raining. my friends and i couldnt go for lunch together.
or we'll get wet.
as we proceed to the canteen, i saw this girl, staring at me with some weird smile.
i smiled back at her, thinking waddahell she wan.
she put both her hand trying to act like an owl.
obviously she's trying to tease some stranger who acted like an owl.duhhh
so i laughed along, trying to have fun although she's just some stranger.

went home, this same girl became friends with me in facebook.
she wrote on my wall
" Thanks add yaa :D
Nice 2 meet youuu ~~ xD "
and we introduced ourself with other party's identity.
i named her kit kit :)

we started chatting.
i made a deal with my toudai, jingen, to ask for her number by myself.
i did it.i wrote on her wall.
" hi, may i have your number?? " ( in chinese )
and i got it.

we started texting dawn to dust.
we texted everyday, everynight, even sometimes we gotta sleep at 4 in the morning just to text each other.
we were happy.really happy.

then one wednesday,i saw her sitting alone outside,i asked her why is she sitting alone.she said her friends accidently left her alone.so i asked her to come along to library with me.she agreed.
we spent almost 3 hours there.chit chatting.very happy.
library needs to be closed.her parents sent me home.thats how i met her parents.and then it was our first time listening to the song "傻瓜 " together with her parents.its a nice song :) and thanks to that song i started calling her 傻瓜.well its because there's 1 line of the song saying “叫我傻瓜” and she repeated tat line.so i took this opportunity to call her 傻瓜.it was funny moment tho :)

i asked her out.she agreed with no doubt.
we had our very first meal together, mcdonalds'.delicious meal :)
then we watched "the rise of the planet of the apes" together.
it was a great show plus watch with her, it doubled the greatness.
when we were on our way home, we promised to go for an outing together again but this time we'll be going sushi king.
before i missed it, her trial was going on.
she was sad.i didnt know.i just stayed back for photo session.

i thought she might gonna stay with her friends.so i planned to walk home alone.
i crossed the road.i heard some weird sound.like somebody is following me.i turned back.i saw this girl, looking like somebody.i didnt bother.
then i told myself, " whaattt?? " and i turned back again.
it was her, trying to cross the road, alone.

i waiting for her, trying to ask her why is she alone.
she didnt want to talk about it.i dont mind.
we walked to our housing area together.
we had lunch.it was still early.we continued sitting there and chit chat for another 2 hours.
then her mom came for her.we went home.

continued texting each other once we were home.
and it became my daily routine, texting and spending time together.
the day i retired from being librarian arrived.i remembered clearly it was friday.
we planned to stay back together after the ceremony ends.
i went out.she was gone.i found her outside the school.and she said she wants to go home.
i asked her for lunch.she agreed without even thinking.we went to tesco, for lunch.
chit chat for another 2 hours again.we even made a deal that we will compete in drawing since i used to love seni and she still does love seni.we even made a deal to ice skating together once she finished pmr.

and continued texting once we got home.
i even being naughty and disturbed her in facebook. ( hehe )

it was malaysia's day.1 relaxing public holiday.we decided to go leisure mall for some study group and i was supposed to teach her maths.i enjoyed teaching her although its a tough task to teach.we went to her friends' house at taman tenaga and then to naam kheung.then took bus home together.great journey.

she had cold war with this little loser.i was sad to see her being treated like that.i was angry to see tat bastard doing this.she even couldnt sleep previous night because of this.i decided to insult and tease that loser.

he got humiliated.i was indeed happy i did something awesome for her sake.
she thanked me.i feel so proud.really proud.

but since then, things slowly changed.we texted each other lesser than before, didnt get to hang out together like we did, and our range was getting further and further.

i thought i treated her best.i didnt know what was wrong.

i started being jealousy.really jealous.for REAL.

things got worst and worst.range further and further.text lesser and lesser.

she needs to sit for her pmr examinations already.i was worried for how she'll be doing.so i tried my best to keep her company.but seems like she dont need me.

the last day of pmr which was 11 oct arrived.she sat for her very last paper happily.
i decided to express my feeling and to let me know my wish to be her boyfriend.my friends supported me


unfortunately, she knew.

she tried avoiding me by running away, without giving me even some tiny little chance to speak.she hid.


since that day on, we talked even lesser, texted even much lesser.all the promised we made to each other became nothing.its like all the deals and promises already been forgotten.

i felt sorry for my friends who supported me so much..

she said she doesn't wan any relationship.

My heart was broken.into million pieces.i walked back to class with shame.luckily i got best buddies ever.they didnt laugh at my failure.they supported me.they even cracked jokes for me.thx alot.u guys are great.

From now on, i'll take tis as a reset.i'll start everything again.im not giving up yet.i'll give you the best of me just to prove how important you are to me based on love.

If u need time, i'll wait

The end.i leaked some parts actually.will update more bout tis.bye