hey peeps !

remember my last post? ( if u read them already )

so we're supposed to do assignment for maths in groups.

and due to some reasons i was being separated from my former group and was placed in the same group as the girl from case 3.

she smiled to herself when she found out im their new member. i was quite pleased to see that xD

and then i took opportunity to speak to her of course !

got her number and shits and eventually we got closer.

we seems to text each other everyday and most of the time.

but shit happens. i think i said something wrong.

therefore i dont think she will text me anymore. ( maybe for just this few days )

perhaps i should text her again after some time?

im actually very afraid that we're gonna be strangers.

this happens a lot to me. i dont want that to happen anymore plus its with her.

will try my best to get even closer. life is destined and i believe its being destined fairly.

Hi peeps.

its me again. * well duhhhh *

alright so yeahhh

today i would like to talk about dejavu.

WHAT IS A DEJAVU?

i dont know the EXACT meaning of dejavu and imma lazy to google it.

so i'll tell ya wad i understand about the word dejavu. ( you may correct me if im wrong )

for me, dejavu is something that happened before, happened again.

for example,
last week you were walking along the road and two malay guys ( not trying to be racist but this is pretty common ) riding on motorcycle robbed a chinese aunty.

next week, you see some common malay guys robbing a chinese aunty while riding on some common motor as you were walking along the same damn road.

it happened and happened again isnt it?

and at THAT moment, you're asking yourself : " didnt i encountered this before? "

but for me, dejavu seems to happened on me before but since i stepped into high school,

dejavu can never happen on me.

true story:

(case 1)
i dreamt that i got this girlfriend and we were like the best couple ever in the planet. (do not ask m ehow this shit works.i dont know i was just holding her hands while walking somewhere and we're the BEST couple ever)

and the very next month or shit, we broke up.f yea =.=

this happened years ago.

(case 2)
i knew this girl and she's like the sweetest girl ever.

you know you just love her everything once you fell for her even she behave like you're just a pure son of a bitch. ( now i was not really sure whether she find me that way but now i guess she was )

so as we were texting she told me that she had a crush to my childhood friend. ( yes this fucked up text got me some fucking emo shit ) and she asked me wad would he think of her. i just said test him up. ( how dumb i was )

and then i had a dream again.

that they got together. woke up and turned up she fucked up this whole shit.

(case 3)
this happened just recently.
i met this girl in college.she's one smartass from some chinese independent called chung hwa if imma not mistaken.she's pretty too ! (thats the best part)

we've never talked. maybe we said excuse me or some shit i dont know.

and then i dreamt that my house was having some most boring fucking party ever but those guests seems to be " bro this is best brohhh this is best bro this is bestt brohhhh this is biggest bro "

then i went up to my room to hide myself from these fucked up drunk bastards.
as i opened the door, i saw THAT girl lying or napping on the bed beside mine.

now that bed beside mine was supposed to be my brother's but he's gone to some other country so it became some guest's bed. and she was napping there.

i asked her wad she was doing there and i 4got wad she replied and just in few fucking seconds she's gone.like...GONE

i look outside my house quickly and start seeking for a dark colour honda city(i forgot the exact colour). what made me seek for that honda city is that i was once queueing up for touch n go and right beside that lane was the smart tag lane.this dark colour honda city passed by me and i took a glance who the driver was.it was her.

so as i was looking for that dark colour honda city, i see no shit of hondas. all i saw was a bmw which looked a lil bit like transformers.it can open up its hoodie.and i saw her in there.( how did she get down there so fast ? )

question is how and why da heck would she be at my house party when we NEVER or NOT even talked yet?!

(case 4)
the next night i dreamt about another girl.( i didnt choose who to dream about alright )

knew her from college too and thats all im unveiling coz she might be reading this i dont know. (just in case)

we never talked much but in that dream we're some kind of close close closeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee friend.

i dont know why but she's even staying together with me. ( i dont meant that we're in relationship but she's staying in the same house as me )

we got even closer
today, after i got home from college i found out that

everything.that.we.tweeted.about.before.was.completely.deleted.

DELETED.

.
.
.
.
.

D-E-L-E-T-E-D


and imma like " dafuq? "

we even said bye to each other today when i passed by the gym she was coaching ! ( you might be thinking.. " she said bye so?". i know. i think the same too. )

but here's the point.

dafuq's happening?!








see wad i meant?

i dont see any possible sign of dejavu.

they just appeared in my dream and left just like that.

this shit always happen.i mean i dreamt bout something and THAT something is what will NEVER happen or if i dreamt about HAVING something, reality is i will NEVER have that something.

and btw i still dont understand case 4.

i mean seriously.what had i done that she'd to delete her tweets to me? ( i think she's gonna know its her if she saw this )
she thought im interested in her?
she's interested in me?
she got comments from somebody? (i noticed she dislike people giving negative comments to her)

any other possible reasons?

honestly , im not angry that she deleted them but at least cure my curiousity please?
i dont wanna die not knowing what and who killed me.(same goes to any of you whose reading. right? no? )

anyway, seems like girls that i find pretty or cute would get close with me and then slowly leave me. ( its like bringing girls back home and left in the morning )

guess im too talkative which gave them annoying moments? ( maybe i should just learn to shut the fuck up )

i dont know.

will see how it goes.

yo peeps.

decided to post this blog in chinese.i dont know why just feel like it.

mistakes might pop out anywhere in this post so just close one eye kays.

今天星期六所以没上课。

一大早起床看着facebook没什么特别的。

用了一整天看着facebook想今天应该做什么。

到最后什么都没做到。

想看电影又没人陪。

想走街朋友都没空。

想在家里看稀有没戏看。

想打dota又很闷。

想找人陪我聊天又不懂要照谁。

想送短信给你弹我知道你不会回我的。

就这样孤孤单单的一天又过了。

假期真的闷道死人。


P/S : if you or you or you or even you dont know how to read then goodluck google translating them.i spent sometimes translating too.

bye

hi peeps.

that lee said my previous post too short.

i admit thats true so i decided to post.again.

so here's my update.

bye.


P/S: that lee called me cheeCHONGfun. bitch -.-

hi peeps !

hmmm....well...

sem 2 started.

bye?

8th of May

The day she gave me an answer.and its a no.

sorry my friends

but im not going to give up.

because i know she is the one.

okayy....28th april....is the day she promised to let me know her answer.

however, she need more time.

will let ya people know soon :)

Hello peep !
Yesterday , 23 April 2012 was historical.
Even I myself can't believe it.

it was monday and this girl has got class at 1.30 but i dont i headed to pyramid with 2 pretty girls, Emily and Valerie. thanks for the company :)
bought a ring and 6 cupcakes and confessed through them. this idea was from Emily and Valerie. thanks a lot, seriously thanks.
went to class at the last period and trust me, things like this is really not easy.
i was damn nervous.
everytime i glance at the box of cupcakes, i start imagining the situation and it hurts my stomach.
and i cant believe i really did it.
i gave her the stuffs and she was totally shocked ! and stunned !
i called her up at night and she said she need to consider



ANSWER WILL BE GIVEN AFTER TRIAL ECONOMIC SUBJECT which is THIS SATURDAY.


im fuckingly nervous right now. HOPE I SUCCESS PEOPLE ! BYE !

I realised i became the one i used to be AGAIN - emotionless

shits were not given to anything anymore.

and even get emo easily.just like olden days.

no wonder i get nominated as mr.cool.no doubt bout it.


spm result was yesterday.

everyone was feeling nervous.im not.

met friends of mine in school.

when i got my result,

i was totally feelingless.

not because i was trying to act cool or shit.

its because thats wad i expected.

however, i feel happy and sad at the same time.

hapy because i managed to pass all my subjects since i failed a few of them during forecast.

sad because......nvm


anyway, was glad everyone did kinda well..especially her :)

you guys should feel proud of yourselves instead of telling everyone u suck ya know.

well, good luck in da future peeps.

and dont be surprised if i offended any of you.thats what emo people do unintentionally so yea bare with it :)

bye

hey peep.

i totally got friendzoned.

this sucks.

bye

i think i got friendzoned....opps...fml

wassup people.its me.again.

well i met this girl, from sarawak.

she's nice....hot...pretty....cute...all in 1.

not just like nescafe 3 in 1.she's more than tat.

so im glad i didnt take action toward my crush.

ehehehehehe....

however, relationship this kind of thing cannot rush oneeee.....

so i gotta take my time.eheheheheheeeee

bye

Hi people. How you doing?
Im asking but dont really care actually.

so anyway, class as usual and homework like usual.

I find this routine starting be tougher and tougher than what it used to be.

Amount of homeworks.....projects to be done...hell

So anyway, many sweet couples did romantic stuff in college today.
I observed.

The part i like most is when a bunch of frenz actually group up and sang two is better than one by boyslikegirls in harmony.

damn sweet right? I know...i know...

I even say many girls holding gifts from boys.

Me?? I got no one to give my gift to :-)
Forever alone.damn sad can cry alone at the corner already.

Last but not least, some people called today as valentine's day and the other's called it forever alone day. While i called it tuesday :)

hey people.

these days i've been getting closer n closer to my college crush.happy thing to share.no??

But

Today, 2 feb 12, i went to college and attended classes like usual.

And she's kinda moody.

She found out her crush wasnt interested in her.and tat guy's my friend,a really good n nice person.

He's cute, hot, handsome, nice body, muscular and smart. How could girls resist??it would definitely be nice watching both of them together <3

Therefore i made a big decision, which is to help my crush.i promised her that i will help her.

How to?? I dont know how yet but i'll help out.

I know for some point of view i might be ulti-fucking-mately stupid.its like im gifting my crush to someone else.

But thats how it is supposed to be right?? To do shit just to see her happy.

Guess i couldnt archieve my 2012 resolution tat soon.maybe later?? Hopefully before end of the world.

Alright i should start thinking how i should help her.bye people.

hello peeps.so college life started like 1 months ago.

met many new friends....they're nice.really

been hanging out with them frequently.

the day before cny holiday, we played cards and loser shall eat a spoon of cili padi.

i actually lost and ate them.trust me its really hot.

i can feel the journey of those cili in my intestine.true story

so yea we're seperated for a week.

and its coz of cny.

so happy cny ppl !

gonna vacuum ppl's money by gambling.teeheeee

bye !

tml would be my first day of college.

I promised myself that i would work really hard tis time.

So within 10months i'll be gud boy.

Like really gud boy.
As in study hard

So if anyone of u readers found out that im nt keeping my word then please kindly slap me hard on my face.

I wont fight back.
True story.

Ciaoz.gotta slp early

moving on is great.

so yea i moved on.

no more eating fruits.

i mean fruit.if any of you get wad i meant.

ok i know imma kinda desperate but this is all gonna end.hopefully

so basically from today on, imma gonna take it slow and steady.

by the way, spm is done long ago.lame

life getting excited at first and then back to craps.

my life routine is all the same everyday.

- eat
- online
- sleep
- text

never forget

- youtube
- watch how i met your mother


anyway, i juz realised something.

which is that im actually being...


nevermind.

bye.

hmmm...spm just ended.

i need hell lots of changes.

checklist :

- hairstyle

- body shape

- phone

last but not least....







- relationship :)

well, until today my memory about her is still fresh.

everything changed since then.

frankly this cause me heartache everything she flashed through my mind.

sometimes insomnia too !

staying awake juz to think bout her, lying to myself that " it could be better "

seems like i was wrong?

i dont know either :)

finally, im blogging again.maybe the last time.who knows?

well, i would like to share this very true story of mine,

which i think i would not want to forget :)

and trust me, i remember the very detail of it.

and if ya gonna read it all,its be freaking long story.


this story begins at august, 1st.
i helped my friend to went on stage to perform some performance,
i hold the character of an owl.
every1 laughed.me, too :)

after school, it was raining. my friends and i couldnt go for lunch together.
or we'll get wet.
as we proceed to the canteen, i saw this girl, staring at me with some weird smile.
i smiled back at her, thinking waddahell she wan.
she put both her hand trying to act like an owl.
obviously she's trying to tease some stranger who acted like an owl.duhhh
so i laughed along, trying to have fun although she's just some stranger.

went home, this same girl became friends with me in facebook.
she wrote on my wall
" Thanks add yaa :D
Nice 2 meet youuu ~~ xD "
and we introduced ourself with other party's identity.
i named her kit kit :)

we started chatting.
i made a deal with my toudai, jingen, to ask for her number by myself.
i did it.i wrote on her wall.
" hi, may i have your number?? " ( in chinese )
and i got it.

we started texting dawn to dust.
we texted everyday, everynight, even sometimes we gotta sleep at 4 in the morning just to text each other.
we were happy.really happy.

then one wednesday,i saw her sitting alone outside,i asked her why is she sitting alone.she said her friends accidently left her alone.so i asked her to come along to library with me.she agreed.
we spent almost 3 hours there.chit chatting.very happy.
library needs to be closed.her parents sent me home.thats how i met her parents.and then it was our first time listening to the song "傻瓜 " together with her parents.its a nice song :) and thanks to that song i started calling her 傻瓜.well its because there's 1 line of the song saying “叫我傻瓜” and she repeated tat line.so i took this opportunity to call her 傻瓜.it was funny moment tho :)

i asked her out.she agreed with no doubt.
we had our very first meal together, mcdonalds'.delicious meal :)
then we watched "the rise of the planet of the apes" together.
it was a great show plus watch with her, it doubled the greatness.
when we were on our way home, we promised to go for an outing together again but this time we'll be going sushi king.
before i missed it, her trial was going on.
she was sad.i didnt know.i just stayed back for photo session.

i thought she might gonna stay with her friends.so i planned to walk home alone.
i crossed the road.i heard some weird sound.like somebody is following me.i turned back.i saw this girl, looking like somebody.i didnt bother.
then i told myself, " whaattt?? " and i turned back again.
it was her, trying to cross the road, alone.

i waiting for her, trying to ask her why is she alone.
she didnt want to talk about it.i dont mind.
we walked to our housing area together.
we had lunch.it was still early.we continued sitting there and chit chat for another 2 hours.
then her mom came for her.we went home.

continued texting each other once we were home.
and it became my daily routine, texting and spending time together.
the day i retired from being librarian arrived.i remembered clearly it was friday.
we planned to stay back together after the ceremony ends.
i went out.she was gone.i found her outside the school.and she said she wants to go home.
i asked her for lunch.she agreed without even thinking.we went to tesco, for lunch.
chit chat for another 2 hours again.we even made a deal that we will compete in drawing since i used to love seni and she still does love seni.we even made a deal to ice skating together once she finished pmr.

and continued texting once we got home.
i even being naughty and disturbed her in facebook. ( hehe )

it was malaysia's day.1 relaxing public holiday.we decided to go leisure mall for some study group and i was supposed to teach her maths.i enjoyed teaching her although its a tough task to teach.we went to her friends' house at taman tenaga and then to naam kheung.then took bus home together.great journey.

she had cold war with this little loser.i was sad to see her being treated like that.i was angry to see tat bastard doing this.she even couldnt sleep previous night because of this.i decided to insult and tease that loser.

he got humiliated.i was indeed happy i did something awesome for her sake.
she thanked me.i feel so proud.really proud.

but since then, things slowly changed.we texted each other lesser than before, didnt get to hang out together like we did, and our range was getting further and further.

i thought i treated her best.i didnt know what was wrong.

i started being jealousy.really jealous.for REAL.

things got worst and worst.range further and further.text lesser and lesser.

she needs to sit for her pmr examinations already.i was worried for how she'll be doing.so i tried my best to keep her company.but seems like she dont need me.

the last day of pmr which was 11 oct arrived.she sat for her very last paper happily.
i decided to express my feeling and to let me know my wish to be her boyfriend.my friends supported me


unfortunately, she knew.

she tried avoiding me by running away, without giving me even some tiny little chance to speak.she hid.


since that day on, we talked even lesser, texted even much lesser.all the promised we made to each other became nothing.its like all the deals and promises already been forgotten.

i felt sorry for my friends who supported me so much..

she said she doesn't wan any relationship.

My heart was broken.into million pieces.i walked back to class with shame.luckily i got best buddies ever.they didnt laugh at my failure.they supported me.they even cracked jokes for me.thx alot.u guys are great.

From now on, i'll take tis as a reset.i'll start everything again.im not giving up yet.i'll give you the best of me just to prove how important you are to me based on love.

If u need time, i'll wait

The end.i leaked some parts actually.will update more bout tis.bye